yipee!!! the mid-year exams ended yesterday!! after one week of perserverance n hard work, i could finally stop looking at books for a while, though, it's kinda depressing to note tt sch starts next week, n i only have 1 day left to do anything i want.. actually nt really lah... my mum keep telling me to go back n do work(nt like i listen to her though=x)
yep, i noe there's plenty of homework still lay on the desk for me to do... but i juz cant bring myself to do them.. i want to give myself some time to rest n enjoy b4 doing anything serious.. yet the truth is tt even though i havent been doing anything srious, neither have i had proper rest nor proper enjoyment...
straight after exam on fri.. i went to get a haircut with my sis.. n e entire afternoon was taken up... waiting time, cutting time, listenin to my sis complain time, dinner time n no slping time b4 i rushed out for shooting.. n end up nt performing also.. tt's how i spent my time after exams.. so sian..
n the problem abt never been able to perform during jj monthly.. i consulted coach abt it.. gt the ans.. understood.. recognise the prob.. but i doubt i will perform at the next n last jj monthly.. it's all in the mind.. the fact tt i have this grudge could never change n it will stay there.. no, i have no anger, no hatred.. but wad i have is disappointment n nervousness.. this cannot be changed.. the cut is too deep, n the scar never disappears.. even though i no longer take shooting n the events tt happened related to it too hard to heart, i noe tt deep in me i have lost quite some hope in shooting, the team n myself..
plus i find it hard to find a reason to persuade myself not to give up yet.. it's like tt.. u dont have a choice..
when priorities come n when others make their necessary choices, u usually will b affected n end up with no choice..
i have sorted out my thoughts abt it already with coach's help..
very often i find myself hesistating in getting my priorities right n doing things bla bla..
when u need to give it up one thing, u have to..
otherwise u will lose another n end up with nthing..
i've learnt to understand tt..
wadeva the case is, i'm glad i have my thoughts straightened out..
4th july is the last competition, national inter-sch.. lets c abt tt..
i will stop talking abt shooting now, cos it is going to bore u..
exams... i noe this is boring too.. n i dont like to talk abt it... juz bear wif it for a few sentences k..
chem's ok lar.. i take exams until i blur liao.. section b a bit waste.. no time..
maths.. the front's manageable, back a bit hard.. overall ok lor.. also no time..
bio mcq a bit hard.. paper 2's ok, only gt 1 last part of i qn no time to finish in section a.. overall ok also lar..
yup..
my haircut wasnt very well done.. but.. nvm lah.. i'm always ok with it.. u'll get to c it on mon..
aiyah.. i very sianz arh.. i wanna watch tv... but my mum ah... aiyoyo.. wan to do hmk but dont feel like it.. tml then say lah hor... heehee ^_^
ok.. shld end here le.. have a gd night.. byebye!

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