yup.. this is the new blogskin.. more colours, more striking.. my sis helped me with the choosing... i liked it too..
only parts of it r nt there... something wrong with the tagboard.. havent figured out that yet.. the archives part is also missing.. i will figure tt out pretty soon..

n u noe wad?!
my dad gt my sis n i both each a creative nano plus mp3 as bday present!!! i was like stunned till.. gave dad n mum a kiss.. haha.. (actually wanted to do tt long ago).. even though they..... nvm..
wadever the case is.. they r my parents.. n i still love them regardless of wad..

my sis choose the white one.. n i gt the red one.. finally managed to have my own mp3! yup, i gt some of the songs i want inside already.. nt very excited though..

haha.. actually both sis n i wanted camera instead.. more practical..
but nvm.. we r still very happy..
we prob have to go save for it lor..
hope we get a job quickly..
but den songs i have r pretty limited.. so if anyone have some nice songs.. say hi to me on msn..

anyway..
after so much talk...
ok fine.. i wanted to complain abt some things...
but lets forget it.. no pt in talking abt these kinda of things.. juz gonna make me even more upset..

gt a call frm jess yesterday..
abt the bbq..
dunno whether i will be able to go..
hope so..
i do miss her.. haha..

a lot of discussions abt prom i've heard lately..
jj's dung late december..
so no rush abt it..
i guess i most prob go for safe n comfy..
i m nt going risk my reputation or anything to become some joker..
wadever..

haha..
i dun i will be able to use the com for some time le.. my mum always complain sarcastically at my ear..
yah... both my parents treat me n sis like little kids..
wadever..
i dun very much have a choice..

dun wanna go on.

~ walk through life being you♥


24 nov......
will be looking for a job.

~ walk through life being you♥


'A' level is finally over!
YEAH! enough for books, assignments, tests and exams for now..
i dun think i wld wan to talk abt he exams.. so let's dun talk abt it..
this blog has been dead for so long tt i think it's time to reivive it..
oh by the way this is the 100th post for the blog! YEAH!! but actually no big deal la hor.. haha..
i think soon i will change the entire blogskin, tagboard, music, everything.. but it is nt the first thing on my list..
actually the first few things that i've once thought r the first few things on my 'to do list' r playing basketball, swimming n badminton... but all of these didnt come true.. wanted to swim today.. but it is raining non-stop..
after exams i thought i will feel relaxed, free and happy.. but i just realised these cannt happen too.. i thought i will be able to do wad i wanted n hope tp do b4 the exms.. but haha
after exams come naggin.. housework n packing.. so many restrictions that i begin to believe i will never can chill out, shop n have fun like a normal 18 yr old gal..
oh yah.. my bday was ages ago.. dun exam..
dun really wanna talk abt it.. but i guess i was very contented already.. at least my dad didnt throw temper tantrums at me n my sis like any other past bdays.. at least it was peaceful.. oh yah...my bro gave us each a little frame as bday present.. it is the first time in my life thus far tt he ever did tt.. nothing much happened... it was like any other day..
though i m officially 18.. i guess there wont be much change... i will still b treated like a kid or izzit a housewife? haha.. i mean a kid can play n ignore other things, stay innocent..
sometimes i thought mayb autism is gd.. it is an xcuse to ignore to surroundings.. have freedom to have ur own world.. relationship troubles dun affect...
haha
i have been alone for ages, i guess i m always trying to get used to it.. i have tried changing it.. but i guess i regret tt effort.. it brought more sadness n unhappiness instead..
so many false images constantly injected n protrayed into my mind..
tt when i finally wake up n realise tt r just plain dreams..
it is just myself being foolish..
i've always thought some things were wonderful.. little did i noe how disgustingly fake they were..
sometimes i hope i'd never have reaised.. to continue believing.. n i esp hate to realise it like straight after the , at the last day...
but den i realise its great to realise tt b4 hand.. to face the reality rather than to stay deep in false hopes...
wadever..
i sound like a kid..
i shl stop here

~ walk through life being you♥