ok b4 i continue with yesterday post... i gt something to tell all readers:
read today's chinese newspaper.. there is a section about instant noodles and some other food.. abt their health value n stuff, these are some useful information to review the various food choices wadever the case is, advice to all: always eat healthily, exercise regularly and saty healthy..
anyway lets go back to continue the previous post..
ok yah tennis on thurs...
yup as i was saying, i love them both.. so i'd rather remain on the fence..furthermore..i am nt a gd tennis player..most prob throw face n embarrass myself....yah btw, i met one of e gals who quit shooting to join tennis..guess e tennis peeps have training later..but anyway, i dunno wad to say lah.. just wish her the best in tennis...
yah, after tennis with aileen n mel, we went to chem lesson at Lt3 together.. janet, linda, xenia n ben were already there, n janet n linda were playing the piano...beautiful music.. i am always very impressed and sort of jealous of ppl who can play musical instruments and are gd at music(tts include my brother n sister..they r both gd at e guitar) ..haha..never gt a chance to learn..guess i am sort of blur at notes of the music..but at least i can say i am gd at shooting..haha...oops back to e topic... yup then ms ng came in, lesson starts.. i managed to keep alert n answer her qns..so embarrassing when i answer wrongly, but nvm lah.. learn in the process mah..yah asked ms ng one qn also abt chem equilibrium..she also nt very sure.. she never thought abt tt qn b4.. but nonetheless.. lesson go on n on.. until abt 5.45pm anyway mel left halfway think abt 5 according to zhaoying... she didnt tell me.. n i didnt realise..she left really very quietly but nvm...den thurs night.. tok to mel on e phone..den realised she really very busy n stressed..but she coping quite well though..which is great.. me leh, rushing through all my work..n e chem file(told ms ng i sure cant complete filing...bla bla)until abt 3am, my parents were angry, my dad flare up n wanted to beat me up but he didnt...but sigh.. its my own fault lah....oh yah 3am shld b friday le hor..haha nvm..
FRIDAY!!
this day finally came again.. as usual.. but i was really exhausted..finally decided to wear my new shoes..nike althea..cost a bombshell man($93.70) actual price $156.50...discounted price cos i bought it during nationday period..wadever promised my mum i will wear it for at leasr 2 yrs haha...den first thing when i left house, it rained super heavily, umbrella seemed useless..sigh, all drenched when i reached the sch..so xing tong abt my shoe lah.. but it dried very quickly.. den lessons lessons n lessons..dunno y my mood tt day like nt very gd leh... oh yah e first break..mel dunno go where.. all my own fault for being so slow at packing my gigantic bag so sorry mel, very sorry... ..but still, i went lib with aileen.. told her some really cold jokes haha..hope she feel really entertained haha..lunch..mel start flipping through e bible aileen lent her... tt reminds me.. sorry aileen for always being unable to make it to ur invitation to go church service with u n...yah sorry.. anyway.. pw's next..
at abt 2, we went to lab to do expt on our blueberry sugar.. dun think it is very successful, but still we tried n did something..
after tt rush to go for shooting training..mel look very tired n stressed.. sigh
shooting: i went at around 4pm, coach left already.. super sad lah..hoping to get some advice frm him..but nevertheless.. many peeps have learning journey..so range rather quiet.. still i carried on with my routine.. dry firing, alignment n everything else...den started shooting..non-stop..20 prep shots.. den 60+ shots at blank target..den took a little rest den realised my hands aching, legs aching.. cant help it.. though tiring, i still love shooting..den continued with 95 shots target shooting.. nt bad actually..found the correct alignment of sighting with target n managed to get a 75% average in total(after some calculations at home) glad tt i am improving.. grping getting smaller too..very happy.. hope to reach max 6-ring soon den 8-ring muahahaha lol..i hope lah.. den actually wanted make it a 100 but getting tired le.. must rest le... den came e last 40 shots at blank target.. nt bad b4 n after training, can c the improvement...JIA YOU!! yup all e way to 6.30++, last one to go(who tell me to arrive late..) but nvm lah.. wah very tired by den le.. must tell u, actually shooting is VERY STRAINING one.. guess i shld start planning some pt programmes for the gals.. build up our arm strength n leg muscles..so can endure competitions better.. oh yah.. hope the rest are doing well in their shooting too..JIA YOU!! GAMBATE!! yup..
happen to bump into mel after training.. man she look upset..guess she really exhausted after her softball n stuff..she shld really one day take some time off to rest...
yah also bump into jason, kailun, yunjie, janet n bla bla.. all busy ppl..juz say bye bye den gtg le..
after tt went 7-11 to get i-magazine for my mum.. den decided to buy choclate for mel..can give her on sat..cheer her up a little....gosh..nt enough cash to get something for aileen also..so sorry..:(
at night: tok to yingfen den eleanor..so long never tok to them le..fen gt some charity show on nov 12, eleanor quit hockey went to join interact..can understand y...yup end of e day...
SATURDAY:
gt flag day today..morning, dad warned me abt getting boyfriends n stuff.. i told him its ridiculous n absurd.. dunno y he suddenly say this.. come on lah..u think ur daughter very pretty izzit? sick..vomit..ridiculous lah..i told him wait until gt guys come after me den say(which is like "haha..it cant never happen.." haha)lol haha...
nvm..afternoon at jp, taxi stand..mel seem quite in a gd mood.. gave her e choc..haha den she accidentally "sprayed" her saliva on my hand while laughing...hahahaha...
went to interchange..some ppl really very cold..approach them politely..ask them.. den they juz treat as they never hear..but gt some also very generous n nice ones lah.. my cousin came down to find me n her friend also.. den...dun want to continue to tok abt flag day.. but i will rmb this day lah...
mel had to rush off at abt 4.30 or so.. aileen n i wnet back late..n i accidentally missed her calls cos surroundings very noisy..den..
i am really very very sorry..mel seem quite sad n unhappy.. really very very sorry to cause her to b late for her stuff...sorry..
den walk around with aileen at jp..influenced her to get a chinese bk..haha.. den left..
dinner with sis n parents.. den i decided to drop by the market area to get some things..sis to, to get a bday gift for her friend...me... secret secret(a surprise for someone... tell u next time in the next post..)
hey gtg le..
until next time..:)

~ walk through life being you♥


yup.. i know i shld b typing my eom and editing then printing out the survey for my pw... but gotta blog mah... ok i looked at most of the peeps in my class blogs liao...only those i know one lah... so guys if u all happen to come by my blog and want me to link u up juz leave a msg k?
ok..
b4 i continue.. zhaoying gave me this webby, very touching n beautiful msg.. u ought to take a look at this:
http://www.geocities.com/kienping/Wishes.htm
ok..lets move on...
today's blog title's this week.. wads abt this week.. (note: guess this will b a super long one..)
lets go day by day...
Mon:
gave mel e watch i bought on fri.. white colour, white straps, big face..think fulfill her requirements of a watch..if u are wondering y i know.. cos i ask her mah.. so arh, peeps learn this: to understand a person, u must observe n ask(lolhaha). reason y i bought her e watch:
cos hers spoilt n i feel rather wierd tt her left wrist is without a watch.. n she sort of have no time to get one..so.. haha..luckily i have some spare cash..haha
yah i gt her a box too n a super lousily cut toilet roll to support the watch..haha glad she like all three items...anyway tts abt it... bio common test, talk abt it le.. so dun wan to repeat. gt back chinese papers too.. comment:ok,nt bad..sigh
oh yah still gt: sun's national day rally, pm's speech must read the news abt it.. very meaningful..
tues:
nthing much actually, mass dance during pc, den played tennis wif mel, aileen, linda..janet& xenia were there too... bio lec..managed to slap myself awake, bio tut..gt some consolation frm ms wun..i absolutely love her!! n all the other teachers as well... jj teachers r really very nice yet strict at times.. but they being strict r eventually gd for us..so..thank you all teachers..oh ya..tt reminds me teachers day coming le..
wed:
kinda as usual... pw..very sianz.. mel can c she very stressed n tired... sigh.. dun want to tok abt it..lets juz keep the issue bet. me n her lah hor...sigh can understand how she feels... bio prac's ok...
thurs:
lessons as usual.. chem prac's fine... after sch gp makeup lesson...mrs chua ask me to help her get chips for the class..she's so sweet lah..everytime treating the class to snacks and stuff.. we must learn to appreciate her noe...'thank you'to her.. yah she asked me a qn on the way.."yusu, y arnt u getting any exemption? u r supposed to b...................." sigh sigh sigh, sad..i very sad noe.. all my own fault...sigh.. all my fault for nt working hard..sigh i so disappointed, disappoint teachers as well...n my parents too..
DU BU QI!!
after tt, tennis with mel n aileen... i didnt really want to join in as in i am one person, nt two.. dun think u get wad i mean but anyway..i felt ok running around helping them picking balls....
OH NO ITS GETTING SUPER LATE...i will continue tml.. promise promise cannot go on le...
nitez!!

~ walk through life being you♥


its like past one am now... n i am still on the com... sigh.. i am super exhausted lah... but not like i did a lot of hmk n stuff...sianz... just spending lots of time on pw.. just completed coming up with the survey... i know i still gt lots of work i havent completed or done yet lah... n i am still flipping through the thick stack of research materials for pw and spending time looking and analysing the draft melissa brilliantly typed out... she put in a lot of time and effort in the wr already.. so i told her to relax a bit.. end up i gt to torture myself... haiyax..nt really lah.. gt to help out mah... we shld b sharing the work load rite....
wadever..pw's nt the main pt today...
latest news: i flunked my bio common test too... n i was really terribly upset.. considering the fact tt i really liked the subject.. n....sigh..
we gt back the paper on mon...since mon morning, i have been controlling my sadness..cos maths.. until bio results came and i cant take it anymore...
sigh
right now, i can officially declare tt i am very lost.. i can no longer find the direction n c where am i going... i am super lost in maths.. think it will take a long long time b4 i can catch up with the others..n bio..really breaks me.. sigh... dunno wad to say lah...serve me right? i deserve it? dunno lah... i really hope that i can change quickly and things can change for the better... presently, i only know i gt many many catching up tt i need to do...n i am super tired now..............zzzzzzzz...
nitez..till nxt time..

~ walk through life being you♥


last fri was jj open house.. i was super busy at the rifle range.. teaching the ever-flowing ever-arriving ppl how to shoot... wadever.. full straight more than 5 hours standing there toking and repeating everything over and over again... super tired.. but like wad coach says: gd training for leg muscles prepare to endure through long competition standing hours.. haha..sad sia.. anyway no time to talk abt the details and this and tt.. but must mentioned this: MY COUSIN CAME DOWN TO SEE ME AT THE RANGE!!!!!! i was like super surprised and touched esp when none of my classmates could appear..quite sad... but can understand lah.. no time liao.. tell u nxt time... got to rush.. bye for now...

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My Feelings:
I don't want to look back at the past, i don't dare and is scared of facing the present, and i fear the future.

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news: maths and chem common tests results are revealed....
i nt sure of wad to comment abt them but anyway,
i barely passed my chem and i failed maths...
wad the maths teacher said: poorly done.. poorly done.. n lots of others... i am also nt sure of how to react to wad he said too... i am also nt sure of how to feel abt this... sad, terrible, fustrated, angry or..? i am nt sure... sad bcos i did badly, terrible bcos i did badly... actually i dont know how to react.. the fact is that i didnt really study for all the subjects.. reason being either i am plan lazy, or my bad habit of doing last min work is killing me or bcos last week i was terribly sick n not in the condition to study anything... i dunno... angry...cos the teacher didnt note tt he shld nt be too open with his comments.. tt he shld nt be tt straight forward and insensitive abt how we feel.... i dunno.. the thing is the teacher may b trying to help us.... wadever i dun noe n dun really want to care.... i am also nt sure whether to comment tt he is a gd or bad teacher... i..sigh...sigh....sigh... gorget it... all tt i can say is tt i am really confused n m feeling at loss... yes confessions.. i have changed... i have changed drastically.. and i am nt sure whether i am happy with the present me...
i juz feel tt if i dont change back to the past me, i will continue to nt do well in my tests, work n exams... but even if i want to change back, i cant..y? bcos i cant...i dunno.. i really wish to change back to the past where i am nt like this, like now, procastinating, lazy unacceptable... i hope i can be back to the old hardworking, studious me... i want to start doing well in my exams my tests in my studies..............sigh... i dont want to promise tt i will change, i am going to change, i am changing,... this n tt when i know tt these will go empty... i am hopeless.. i cant wake up, i cant change... i dont have control over myself... and i really hope to be able to control myself again, and have discipline....i........sigh........
pls...pls...someone pls help me..................................................................................................................................

~ walk through life being you♥


yup hallo in a weak tone.. u must b wondering why right... i am recovering from my illness.. flu, cough, fever.. sorts...sianz...really sian..
these stupid illnesses came during the common test period, the very crucial time i had to work very hard for and had to do well for the tests as they take up 30% of the SA... and den i end up sick... cos the no. of days ago.. i slept pretty late.. ate lots of unhealthy food cos of the seniors farewell party, the national day celebrations... had lunch with my sis on 8 aug and my dad bought burgers on national day... and i end up sick on wed and den i gt very very impt exams th following days... dun say tt i shld hav studied for them earlier... i noe tt too... but u noe me n my prob.. sigh.. dun say serve me rite too... dun dig into it.. i feel very terrible already, doing test papers in a half-conscious state isnt something i like.. n its really terrible.. esp on thurs's maths n bio papers.. i was juz shivering at my seat.. think the fever went a bit too high... n i didnt have any panadol at hand... sigh and den i couldnt even study for the tests... half-dead, half-alive, how to study? and den on fri? sneezing non-stop choking and stumbling on my breathe... sigh.. terrible..
i had a couple of days of rest(lucky there was this weekend after the two days.. or else i wld hav collapsed.. haha) n tried to study for today's paper.. chinese.. n den today's paper? nthing i studied came out.. n its damn hard lah... sigh... all the papers i done(other than chi)i cant say whether they are easy or nt cos i wasnt even really very clearly aware of what i was writing.. all i can say tt it is they shld hav been do-able.. sigh wad else can i say sigh...
NOW ITS ALL OVER.. HEAVE A SIGH OF RELIEF? i dunno.. nvm juz do it.. SIGH!!! hope i am feeling better...
okay tts over for the talk abt common tests... now b4 i continue... i want to show u the DNA model Zhaoying and i built during bio makeup prac lesson on sat morning 6Aug.. this pic's with compliments for Zhaoying(it's hers) aPpLaUsE please..!! nice right.. quite proud of it too.. dunno whether i am showing two similar pics but anyway here they are


so thanks!! smilez:P:):D (-_-)''' i noe.. hax...
yeah tts abt it.. gtg now... tell u abt national day celebrations next time k? promise i will try... ok
sign off here with a msg.. MAY ALL WISHES OF ALL COME TRUE!! SMIle!

~ walk through life being you♥


actually i intended to talk abt last fri's farewell party for shooting seniors n yesterday's national day celebrations cum sports carnival n many other things tt happen recently... but then i dont really feel like doing so now... there are many things on my mind... esp. this thing abt the coming common test on thurs...
to tell u honestly, i haven start revising on anything and i am seriously totally unprepared for any kind of test or exam... i am so tired... sometimes i seriously hope tt time can stop for a while and let me catch my breath and catch up with anything that i lagged behind.. and i seriously hope tt my character can changed back to what it was in the past.. the super hardworking me... now what? i am seriously far behind what i shld b.. i dunno.. i do understand tt the problem lies in me... tt if i do want to do well, its up to me to do well... but the prob is tt i am always procrastinating.. the fact that dont want it to happen always go across my mind but it never works.. my brain is never listening to my mind and my heart is not obeying my mind... sigh.. wad crap...
the only thing i can do is to pray tt things wld change and i can change for the better.....
hey i dun wan to continue this anymore... promise to tell u those things some other time ok...
let me end of here with
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!
and MAY THE FORCE BE WITH US!!(i am serious!)
and also GOOD LUCK to ALL and ESP. ME for the coming common test! CYA...

~ walk through life being you♥


yup.. juz thinking of putting more stuff into my blog other than daily messages... so here i am putting in some more pics n ans to e quizzes i tried out... prob u guys can gauge how true they are.. smilez:)

People see nothing in your eyes. You seem to either
be indifferent about everything or are trying
to cover up a lot of pain. Your eyes have a
cold stare that can make people shiver. Try to
show a little more caring, because your hard
exterior most likely drives people away.
...stop looking at me like that...stoppit!


What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
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You have DIVINE love, and it shows in every fiber
of you. If you havent yet graced someone with
your love, dont rush. Not everyone deserves
someone as wonderful as you are because they
dont understand your rarity, but when you find
someone who does you will lead a very full and
wonderful life.


What Type of Love Best Represents You?? (WONDERFUL anime pics!)
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okay think this is enough... cos i wanna show u other pics too...
below is the pic of the model of my pistol gun i use in shooting club in jj.


not sure if this works.. hope u can see this... yup
below is the rifle that my sch rifle shooters use..

hope this works too..
yup....
ok tts all for this post.. all pics..
i will continue another time.. then i'll tell u what's been happening recently, but anyway, next mon is national day celebration cum jj sports carnival.. anywayz, i join the telematch out of fun and also cos yunjie is frantically looking for another gal to join... cos he need to hand in the form already... yup tuesday is national day, thurs onwards will b the start of common tests... ok tts all.. good luck.. n until next time!

~ walk through life being you♥