been playing bball with the class guys pretty often recently..
prelims r coming though..
noe i shld work hard for it...
juz keeping a note tt i havent forget tt i have this blog..
studying life can be very boring..
i will try to make it exciting soon..
wadever the case is i m nt in the mood to continue typing this msg..
very sian...
so so sian..
i hope things sould have been better..
i hope...

~ walk through life being you♥


so much work to do...
so much revision i need to do...
yet i haven't done anything...
so sianz...
i'm such a slacker n procrastinator...
very frustrating...
study study...

~ walk through life being you♥


yep.. today's national day!! (tt's y the text's in red)
n i have a terrible backache and some muscle strain all cos of yesterday.. i dont actually mind.. cos i enjoyed myself.. being part of the game is rather a fun n exciting thing..
yesterday was the sch national day celebration cum sports carnival.
rmb i joined the fartleg event last year? haha.. i didnt this year.. in fact i didnt join anything... haha..
but still yesterday during tug-of-war.. there was a lack of gals.. so shuhui n her friends dragged me in... when i was only prepared to cheer at the top of my voice..
still eventually i joined..
at first we were leading.. but heard tt someone in front fell down.. den we lost..
the other round.. hmm.. mayb teamwork wasnt really there.. but we did put in our best.. though i was kinda upset with my embarrassing performance.. haha... nonetheless.. it was a great experience.. nt to mention many of the gals gt some minor injuries.. xin rui gt a bad bruise scratch.. shuhui gt some tore skin... but we all enjoyed ourselves.. n oh derek forgt to take his medal b4 leaving..
after tt initially i wanted to have lunch with my sis.. but den linda called to ask if i mind eating with e class.. though the no of ppl left is like 8? many didnt turn up.. still i decided to join them.. it's rare to have class outing k..
yup initially they wanted to go chan peng's house to cook haha.. den eventually we went to linda's house to cook n have lunch..
i went back to sch to get the medals.. den went the join them at ntuc..
bought a lot of stuff... with linda the grocery gal n cook n ben aka da chang jing (lol haha..) n stacey deciding wad to buy.. poor yun jie had to carry e basket haha..
bought chicken wings, macaroni, spaghetti, minced meat, 2 jars of sauce n 2 giant cans of soup...
we left for linda's house shortly after n all e while on e bus my back was aching n i was hoping for a place to sit..
when we reach, we started cooking.. at first i was still helping a bit.. but soon later, i felt so tired tt i went to lie down on her sofa n slp.. n i heard yun jie poking fun at ben.. n haha.. den i dozed off... guess i was too tired to have any dreams.. by the time i wake up, it's nearly tine to eat.. tt was really fast.. i slept for a pretty short while only...
soon we arranged the table n chairs n gathered to eat.. at first it was so quiet.. n i wasnt very used to it.. cos i always happen to eat in a very noisy environment.. but it was very very nice to be able to sit with them around the table n eating our lunch at linda's home... it was very heartwarming n i felt so at home..
den some neighbour was playng some music tt sounded a bit sad n we were so quiet till it was like some last supper.. haha... but it was really nice... really... it's like a family reunion..haha.. den we started talking a little.. abt cca.. n stuff.. i ate a chicken wing.. finished my meal n decided to help with e dish-washing.. after washing up.. i went to play with linda's dart board.. while some were still eating n chatting in the room.. sorry i didnt join u all but i was kinda tired to talk too much.. plus i m nt really a very chatty person.. abit introvert...
ok still i enjoyed the time with them.. naughty yun jie took a video.. namig ben da chang jing haha..
thanks guys for the fulfilling time..
left shortly after lunch.. really needed sleep.. poor guys.. had to settle the plenty chicken wings left.. heeehee... wonder wad they did with them.. haha..
i left with jiamin.. at first i wanted to go home.. but later i decided to hand to je to look for my sis...
we both slept our way there..
went to the silent reading room found my sis.. i decided to sit down n slp..
but first i grabbed two LOTR books to glance through b4 slping.. jiamin went over to another sit.. n soon she was slping.. haha.. we were all tired..
i dozed a little while later.. only waking up like after half hour or so.. n it was kinda late already.. jiamin left b4 us.. n sis n i went around to window shop n den gt 2 sausage waffer..
left for home after tt..
so today's national day n i have already wasted half of it doing nthing other than playing online games.. sigh.. should b starting w my hmk pretty soon..
ok tts all for now..
Happy Birthday Singapore!!

~ walk through life being you♥


my life have been kept really busy over the past few weeks... my thoughts were heavily invaded..
tests coming n go as swiftly as time juz flew..
during the past week n this week, i spent my time trying to clear all the confusion i might have in my brain.. trying to avoid the thoughts tt will send me into confusion as much as they could penetrate my beliefs, faith n direction of thoughts.. i cannot clearly state whether i've overcome it or not.. n i cannot deny tt i may be constantly thinking of it... i will nt start saying wad.. cos i will prevent tt frm happening.. other than tt.. i will say i m trying to avoid its increase in magnitude tt will bother.. rather than i have successfully accept or conquer it..
i wont bother worrying if anyone is capable of understanding wad i m writing cos.. i m treating this as if i m talking to myself..
i finally admitted tt i m indeed a deep thinker..
i guess accepting tt have help me to feel much better..
these days.. seems like many ppl r seeking a person to confide to.. likewise i muz say i found myself doing the same thing too..
my heart's been searching for a confidant i think.. to see my urge to talk to someone..
in any case i guess after thursday, i've managed to cope with negative comments targetted at me..
i understood the truthfulness of the fact tt one mayb capable of providing advice or guidance, but incapable of guiding ownself..
to realise tt.. i've realised how much guidance i should be giving myself..
once i told a person...
y be so bothered abt how other ppl look n comment abt u..
wadever ppl have said abt u is their personal judgements formed into thoughts, opinionated with ther visual discoveries..
how much of wad is said is nt clouded by perceptions n hearsay.
how much truthfulness, honesty, feelings n thoughts were spent on making tt comment?
after all, are all of the above so impt? u have to qn urself..
i have discovered how unvoidable it is to feel something towards comments n weapons of defamy? distraught, unhappiness, hurt or upset? let it come but understand its occurrence n it will pass.. den u will feel how naive to spent ur time feeling upset abt the comments other give?
unless the comments were truthful.. consider the reasons for comments..
the part i refuse to swell on.. life goes on..
i will stop talking abt all of these complicating stuff.. cos they will never end..

i have nt found myself as a person who blogs as if to report daily events.. esp at this time.. everything pass n go very quickly..
but still i have to highlight some things..
wed, thurs, fri mel went to biopolis for some bio idp course or something.. missing out a lot of lessons..
i m confident of her ability to cope with the many things at hand n keep at tip-top condition.. of course i will do my part n wadever necessary to ensure tt she has nt missed much over the past few days.. i hope she have enjoyed tt experience at biopolis.. it was a rare chance
anyway this week's been rather torturing.. tests, hmk, assignments.. really glad e weekend has arrived.. nt to remind myself options test's nxt mon.. plus e piling hmk..
been exercising a lot over e 2 weeks..reason, to keep a clear mind, relieve stress n definitely to keep fit..
it doesnt take too much time, at most 1h each time, at least once a week, up to 3 times..
i enjoy running esp.. among many other activities..

these days when i am alone..
some ppl have been coming to me, providing some company.. like the sweet cleaning lady whom surprised me by recognising me since a long ago during shooting camp... n also some other friends..
i m really grateful towards them, for keeping me company..
every single person i regarded much as a gift..
a gift tt i will treasure so much..
i m surprised with their sudden appearances that have very much help me to calm my mind or juz rid me of loneliness..
thank you very much!

it's getting really late.. n i m really tired, exhausted.. didnt expect to type so much..

so till next time... gd nite!

~ walk through life being you♥