been sitting here in front of the com..
been playing pool online..
den juz realise i have been wasting so much time..
alamak..

today was a really bad day..
frm morning..
a terrible start...
to afternoon was so much worse..
so silly of me to actually turn up

start working next week..
feel very sad ms _____ did nt hire my sis..
my sis's very upset..
i feel even more terrible..

past few days went to buy e clothes i may need..
some of them chosen by my sis.. nt exactly wad i wanted though..

today saw some shirts tt i felt i wld feel more comfortable in..
but cant buy le.. prob next time ba.. in future when i earn some more money..

my mum's getting more n more unreasonable each day..
constantly saying things to hurt me...
my dad's often throwing his temper at me..
my mum's chasing me n sis to slp..
claiming tt my dad this n tt..
when the actual reason is my dad's waiting for my bro to come back home frm his party..
see whether he need to go fetch him..

my sis had a quarrel with me lately..
she is upset tt she waste so much time n effort into looking for a job.. but yet she did get a job..
while instead i found one without much effort..
i spent so much time trying to convince her tt u get some u lose some.. (while in my heart i feel like saying i get some but lost a lot)..

she feel upset tt i seldom listen to her..
but she always had to listen to me..
i wonder how true these r..
even if they r so true..
i always want to tell her..
however 'bad' she is, she still has a momo she can talk to, to complain abt how terrible her sis is..
but me.. i cant..
i cant complain to anybody..
even on this blog..
when i actually intended it to b a space where i can discuss abt my reflections abt life.. n the philosophy.. n opinions abt many other things... abt realism.. abt dreams....
but instead i realised i needed this space more for venting my unhappiness... throwing up my complaints n other really real things in life..

n also the limited chance n time i can use the com n post a message on my blog..

but i'm glad i have at least this space i can throw up on..

have to go..
my mum's knocking.. putting up "silent" protest..
again.

till next time!

~ walk through life being you♥