Friday, July 07, 2006
results n stepping down
yup, we r slowly getting back all our results for mid-year.. normal.. other than tt i've gt nthing else to say, rather than buck up..though i didnt fail anything so far..my life as a shooter in jjc has ended..
straight after wednesday.. or izzit straight after i finish shooting my last ever series at national intersch?
i would say it is the latter.. but my heart have nt accept tt fully..
it was too quick n abrupt..
the experience was memorable..
but to b honest.. i m clear abt e moments tt i enjoy during my time in shooting n those tt i really suffered, physically or mentally..
i will try to rmb only e happy occasions..
wadever e case is, i miss shooting..
my gun's no longer mine, locker's no longer mine..at e very moment i finish shooting my last final shot.. i havent gd a chance to retrieve back my stuff.. i will.. soon enough b4 nxt week when the j1s come charging to throw all my stuff away..
there r several things i want to talk abt, abt shooting.. abt wed's national.. but i m thinking abt it.. i've spent e entire of wed, missing lessons, at safra yishun.. n i remain doubtful whether it's worthwhile..
but see..
these r no longer impt..
it has all ended.
but anyway, i remain proud of the year ones.. n sincerely the blessings i will give. of them, i c talent, c commitment n potential.. i believe tt they can perform better than us.. at least in most of them i c tt..
i really want to tell them something..
but i believe it was made pretty clear to me tt shooting has ended.. n it shld end.. n i shld no longer have space in my mind for it.. so let me juz voice it out here..
year ones, when u r in j1, choose ur priority now.. if u can c urself giving up shooting in future at j2, forget abt shooting at all, u'll waste ur efforts, if u believe u can work hard for both, give urself full commitment to shooting(also studying too of course) now, give urself chance to reach great heights now, b4 reachin j2 when u cant spent enough time for improvement.. explore, u can, but make sure whenever u explore, test it out.. find urself in j1..
when u come to j2, get urself settled.. stay at form.. n perservere.
anyone can shoot, only how well..
rmb to grab ur basics well.. n learn to control ur mind.. it is a very powerful weapon.. mental skills is the hardes to learn for most.
one more thing.. at yr 1, compete u can for the team positions.. work hard individually u can too.. but never forget.. ur all r a team.. eventually at certain events, the final score depends on every single person in e team..
yup tt's abt it..
shooting has ended for me for now.. n i noe it shld really stop, cos studies is really e most tiring, worrying n impt thing right now.. there is no 2nd chance..
i hope i can start cracking up b4 it's too late..
oh btw, on wed, e gals went for lunch at northpt, which is nearby.. stuff rather ex.. n nxt sat e j2s plus some lucky j1s will have e traditional makan session at lot 1.. anyway, i hope e yr1s noe how lucky they r this yr.. to b able to start as early as jan or march.. unlike last yr when we start only in july..
oh the jj fun shoot is coming up soon.. with regards to e inter-house games.. e lucky j1s will get to organise it, unlike the j2s, who never gt so much opportunities..
ok ok, stop talking abt shooting n stop complaing.
anyway, fri we had a early dismissal cos all teachers have to attend some excelfest i think n nxt mon sch will start at 10.. cos of world cup..
mrs chua going on course.. her son will take over.. gd luck to us..
there's lot of work i need to do, plus a lot of catching up...
i need to get back on track, quickly too..
for now, juz to to bed n slp.. i've wasted e entire day..
oh.. actually wanted to upload a whole string of photographs related to shooting, sch life n/or other things.. but now it seems kinda late.. guess i'll prob do tt nxt time le..
so..
bye for now.. sweet dreams, gdnight :)
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