hey.. look at all the dust n cobweb tt has collected here..
i noe it's like going to be a month since my last post..
but noe using the com is like a troublesome chore tt takes up time for me..
everytime it's my bro n sis using it.. so i sort of lose interest in it n become lazy to blog..
though these r juz a few of the reasons for nt blogging fo so long..
stress is really building up n i can feel it.. i m still lagging behind others for math.. but i'm taking it one step at a time.. i've loosen the intensity of training for shootin.. meaning less frequent.. n it's kinda obvious..
anyway the reason for slacking for shooting has its roots..
tt goes wa back to e 9 n 10 of april abt the hometeamns intersch shoot.. rmb how much faith, hope n dreams i have abt it.. rmb me telling u abt the tremendous effort n much sacrifices the few of us made for this...
yup.. it's tt event.. i dont to repeat myself n dwell on it.. so juz touch n go..
Good: the rifle guys won the team event silver, cuthbert individual silver.. (we noe the reasons for tt)
Not so Good: i gt in the finals for individual.. (it was a wonderful experience though, shooting in an electronic range for the first time... although there were many hiccups b4 it(lets skip this)) i didnt perform my best, but i was as per normal for the individual event.. the finals were a bit embarrassing, but the reason is understanding..
Not gd: the pistol gals lost the team bronze by 3 or 4 pts.. which is definitely acheivable.. lets juz say they couldnt handle e competition tension as usual.. didnt perform n made mistakes.. i m nt blaming anybody.. i understand tt we all feel sour abt it..
terrible: i talked to one of my team mates sometime ago.. n realised tt she werent putting tt event at of much imptance at all.. she told me tt her priority was to study.. n she is nt prepared to commit as much to shooting.. den i realised y i felt so sour n terrible after tt event.. juz like wad cap told me.. we sacrificed so much to secure the guarantee to winning yet u still lose becos u cant expect ur team mates to put in as much effort.. tt's y we couldnt make it..
there is this quote "winning isn't everything, wanting to win is" yes i agree to this absolutely.. but the prob here is tt they r nt even thinking of wanting to win.. u can c frm the amt of commtment they have.. amt of effort they put in... then u tell me to shut up n dont blame others cos everybody is feeling sour n tt its the experience is impt?
pardon me..
the reason y cap n i feel so much of tt lost is nt we look so much in losing, its cos we put i n so much sacrifice the other side, come back with nthing xcept experience n the sacrifice nt worthwhile.. n all of wad's lost nt cos of us..
tell me how to forget it n dont blame ppl
its quite definite tt i cant probably beat those pros at indiviual events. its all for the team..
but since my team mates dont care much it.. tell me... y shld i work so hard? y shld i scarifice the other side? i also want to do well for my studies too..
den she tell me its abt choices.. since i chose to put in so much for shooting, i shld bear my own consequences..
so i think i shld scold myself stupid n tt i deserve it?
ok fine.. i told her..
nxt time for any competitions juz how much of importance so they view them... wad have they prioritised first? i dont want my n his efforts to go to waste down the drain n afterwhich slap with the comment tt u deserve it..
thanks...
sorry for all these... i promised nt to talk abt it but i really cant help it.. but pls.. i m certainly nt defaming anybody...

anyway... tt's something tt have already passed n is history.. recently mr oh juz waved the new made trophy for the montly shoot in front of me... trying to tempt.. i'm weighing my chances n considering how much i shld commit myself to it.. i noe my limits.. soon there will b a friendly match with other jcs too... let's juz wait n see

ok..
stop... tt's all abt shooting i wanna talk abt

today's nomination day for the coming elections.. so it's no sch for us.. cos our sch is one of the centres..
which means tt there isnt any holiday cos there's a pile of work in front of my face n xpected remedial lesons coming.. so holiday is juz a word

there's napfa test to.. so fast it's over.. managed 13.58 for 2.4.. the rest as per normal..

ok.. its getting kinda boring here.. i shall continue later.

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