news: maths and chem common tests results are revealed....
i nt sure of wad to comment abt them but anyway,
i barely passed my chem and i failed maths...
wad the maths teacher said: poorly done.. poorly done.. n lots of others... i am also nt sure of how to react to wad he said too... i am also nt sure of how to feel abt this... sad, terrible, fustrated, angry or..? i am nt sure... sad bcos i did badly, terrible bcos i did badly... actually i dont know how to react.. the fact is that i didnt really study for all the subjects.. reason being either i am plan lazy, or my bad habit of doing last min work is killing me or bcos last week i was terribly sick n not in the condition to study anything... i dunno... angry...cos the teacher didnt note tt he shld nt be too open with his comments.. tt he shld nt be tt straight forward and insensitive abt how we feel.... i dunno.. the thing is the teacher may b trying to help us.... wadever i dun noe n dun really want to care.... i am also nt sure whether to comment tt he is a gd or bad teacher... i..sigh...sigh....sigh... gorget it... all tt i can say is tt i am really confused n m feeling at loss... yes confessions.. i have changed... i have changed drastically.. and i am nt sure whether i am happy with the present me...
i juz feel tt if i dont change back to the past me, i will continue to nt do well in my tests, work n exams... but even if i want to change back, i cant..y? bcos i cant...i dunno.. i really wish to change back to the past where i am nt like this, like now, procastinating, lazy unacceptable... i hope i can be back to the old hardworking, studious me... i want to start doing well in my exams my tests in my studies..............sigh... i dont want to promise tt i will change, i am going to change, i am changing,... this n tt when i know tt these will go empty... i am hopeless.. i cant wake up, i cant change... i dont have control over myself... and i really hope to be able to control myself again, and have discipline....i........sigh........
pls...pls...someone pls help me..................................................................................................................................

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